hard to explain hard to understand

knp terlalu susah utk memahami hati dan perasaan diriku ini...sy rase sy dh explain sume even its hard to explain to u... to make u clear..2 make u understand what i feel..and u already said that u understand and will understand whtaever i decide...but now...i feel that u blame me...what kind of person u are...i dont know whatever u think about me...but maybe its my mistake..my mistake ok...sorry if i hurt u..sorry if i disspointed u..i didnt mean that coz i think u really2 understand my situation...u make me guilty....thanks...